Some people call them Earth Angels. Mine are called friends. They may not be actual angels, but they are angelic to me.
I would not have started nor been able to continue my current journey without these beloved people. Some have known me for many years and seen my descent into sadness and loss of identity. Others have only known me from the start of this transition and some have joined me midway.
I am unable to adequately express my thankfulness and gratitude to these wonderful human beings. I often wonder how I was lucky enough to attract such kind and caring and loving people into my life. They are not obliged to walk this road with me and yet they do. They do it with aplomb.
I only hope that they know how very much each one of them means to me. I make the effort to tell them and often. I know that life is short and I don’t want any one of them to exit my life for whatever reason without knowing how they affected me and changed my life for the better.
I would love to name each of them, but firstly I may very well inadvertently forget someone and cause deep offence and secondly I would not like to expose them, as some of them would prefer to remain anonymous.
What I can say however, is that they lift me up and carry me when I just can’t put one foot in front of the other anymore. They provide sense when everything is spiralling out of control and appears to lack any rationale whatsoever. They bring me back from the depths into the light. Whether it is by providing me refuge, making me tea, meeting for coffee or meals, cooking me meals, sending me jokes to make me laugh and smile, sending me thoughtful and inspiring messages, holding me while I cry, telling me I am normal and okay, helping me make decisions, making decisions when I can’t, checking in on me to see that I am still alive (literally and figuratively), loaning me their credit card, helping me shop, fetching my kids, loving my kids, giving me hugs and kisses or just generally causing me to feel loved and safe. My heart spills over when I think of it all and I am so thankful to have them as all part of my tribe. I love each and every one of them dearly.